Just got an email that the cancer is back in my friend's brain. Besides being paralyzed from the last brain chemo, all the stem cells they harvested will sit forever in the freezer because now there will be no transplant. Hospice care looms on the horizon.
He worked hard all his life, made himself a tuna sandwich every day for lunch so he'd not waste his money. Yet when it came to others he was more than generous. I speak from experience because he was once my boyfriend. We weren't so good at that relationship; we made better friends. After I joined the community he'd come for Vespers and dinner on Sunday night occasionally. He liked the thought of me being a nun.
When it came to the church he gave his time, his money, his heart. And he had a big heart. He was looking forward to retirement so he could attend the Eucharist every day. My ways are not your ways, says the Lord. Lord, you can say that again. I was feeling the after-Easter let down all day today... snapping at my sisters, feeling blaaah in general.
Now I feel nothing. Nothing as in empty. (As in about to throw up.) As in totally bummed. No tears... just a hole in my gut the size of a basketball. Dread sting... dead string... dread sting... dead string
There's a real dark side to being flavor of the month. (I've experienced it more than once.) Look at how God treats His "chosen people" in the Old Testament. One minute they're chosen, the next a rebellious and stiff-necked generation. You can't ever believe your own press. Good to keep in mind.
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You can no more win a war than you can win an earthquake. ~Jeannette Rankin
They are not all saints who use holy water. ~English Proverb
We teach children how to measure, how to weigh. We fail to teach them how to revere, how to sense wonder and awe. ~Rabbi Abraham Heschel
The Gospel of Jesus is not a victory dance for well-to-do Americans who want it all, including eternal life. ~Tom Ehrich
God is nothing like us, but we are God's creatures, and the divine fingerprints are all over our experience. ~Barbara Crafton
Religion is a journey into the mystery of God. It is not a system of beliefs and creeds and when it becomes that, it always becomes idolatrous and begins to die. ~John Shelby Spong
America can be great again, not by asserting military might, but by standing for something more than big cars, big houses, big-screen TVs and big walls along the Rio Grande. ~Tom Ehrich
They are not all saints who use holy water. ~English Proverb
We teach children how to measure, how to weigh. We fail to teach them how to revere, how to sense wonder and awe. ~Rabbi Abraham Heschel
The Gospel of Jesus is not a victory dance for well-to-do Americans who want it all, including eternal life. ~Tom Ehrich
God is nothing like us, but we are God's creatures, and the divine fingerprints are all over our experience. ~Barbara Crafton
Religion is a journey into the mystery of God. It is not a system of beliefs and creeds and when it becomes that, it always becomes idolatrous and begins to die. ~John Shelby Spong
America can be great again, not by asserting military might, but by standing for something more than big cars, big houses, big-screen TVs and big walls along the Rio Grande. ~Tom Ehrich
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7 comments:
{{{Hugs}}} CJ. I'm so sorry to hear this kind of news. I will begin immediately to pray for you and your friend.
Prayers, Prayers, Prayers...of peace, acceptance, and above all else love!
I HATE cancer!
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I thought that was what you were referring to this morning. My heart aches for you and D.
I'll be here when the tears do come.
I'm so very very sorry for your grief. (((CJ)))
My thoughts and prayers are with you in spirit. When you feel unable to pray, think, or do anything, just let others do it for you.
Peace.
Oh CJ! I'm so very sorry. I, too, will add you both to my prayers.
My younger brother is a brain cancer survivor and this story struck total fear in my heart. There but for the grace of God go I...
Thank you from the bottom of my heart for all your prayers and hugs. I spent about four hours with him this afternoon... brought him the Eucharist, fed him yogurt, washed his face and arms, held his hand, hassled the nurse for better pain medication... Grace was with me because of you.
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